DEFEATER Abandoned LYRICS
album: "Abandoned" (2015)
Contrition
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered
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Unanswered
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
Now hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I let the pain in my head to the veins in my arms to rush
I feel the burn in my blood in my lungs in my chest collapse
I feel the ache in my guts as the memories and hurt flood back
When all I want to feel, when all I want to feel is nothing
I let the pain in my head to the veins in my arms to rush
I feel the burn in my blood in my lungs in my chest collapse
I feel the ache in my guts as the memories and hurt flood back
When all I want to feel, when all I want to feel
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
Now hopeless and abandoned. hopeless and abandoned
Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned, unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned, unanswered
I was a good man once...
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December 1943
I can't remember (Remember)
Each time it slipped right through my fingers
The eyes and faces of my brothers (My brothers)
They never made it back home to their mothers
And all I remember (Remember)
Of 1943 December
Me and Sullivan behind the line, we gathered (We gathered)
[?] to hold the match to the fire
The smoke lead the way back to [?]
My disbelief in what we built for me
Bogged down with no warning, no hope
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold
And I remember
The prayers my mother's mother taught her
And no, I don't believe her
I'd be dead with my fellow men and the preacher
No hands to pray
If I should die before, before I wake
I pray the lord for my soul, my soul to take
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to fold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to fold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
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Spared In Hell
I’ve never heard the voice of god, I’ve found no trace of heaven either.
Since I was spared in hell I repay the old chaplain that saved me.
I spend my days with the good book, follow every chapter, prayer and verse.
I spend my nights with my vices just to find some proof in the words.
I’ve never heard the voice of god, I’ve found no trace of heaven either.
To try and forget my time in hell, I raise a glass to the saint that saved me.
I spend my days with the bottle, lie in every chapter, prayer and verse.
My nights spent burying demons to find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Lord, let me down. Lord, let me down.
I find no proof in the words, no vestige of hope or the lord.
Lord, let me down, lord. Lord, let me down.
I find no proof in the words, no vestige of hope or the lord.
Lord, let me down, lord. Lord, let me down.
Let me down, lord. Let me down.
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Divination
I walk in shadows and darkness
I feel the feel of the sand
My words are calloused and poisoned
Easy work, the more idle the hand
Cover my tracks with a pulpit
The back alley's my arms
My veins are thinning in poisons
Lying tongues in mouths of snakes, guile charm
I feel the feel of the sand
I feel the feel of the sin
I feel the feel of the sand
I feel the feel
Breathe addiction and darkness
I feel the smoke in my lungs
My words are venom and poisoned
All lies except when speaking of love
Cover my ears to the ringing
To the memories and pain
Her voice like singing of sirens
Drown myself among the rocks and the waves
I feel the feel of the sand
My veins, the touch of her hands
I feel the feel of the sin
The acid touch of her hand
I feel the feel of the sand
My veins, the touch of her hands
I feel the feel of the sin
I feel the feel
In my hour of darkness
I feel the feel of the sin
My wounds are calloused and poisoned
Easy work, the more idle the hand
Cover my tracks with a pulpit
The back alley's my arms
My veins are thinning in poison
Lying tongues in mouths of snakes, guile charm
I feel the feel of the sand
Pray to the dirt for repent
I feel the feel of the sin
My veins, the touch of her hands
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Borrowed & Blue
Crows sing, early morning
Just before sunrise
Our night spent with the guilt
Until morning light
We share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms are sore from the weight
I may be a sinner
Forsaken and damned
Selfish and pride for the touch of her hand
Our lips speak in secrets
Our tongues lie in verse
Our hearts slow with the guilt
Our love, our only recourse
And we share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms are sore from the weight
I may be a sinner
Forsaken and damned
Selfish and pride for the touch of her hand
And I will hold you close with the ebb and flow
Though the tides may turn, we won't
And I will hold you tight like an anchor line
Through the cruelest seas at night
And I will hold you close with the ebb and flow
While the tides may turn, we won't
And I will hold you tight like an anchor line
Through the cruelest seas at night
We share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms are sore from the weight
I may be a sinner
Forsaken and damned
Selfish and pride for the touch of her hand
"Keep me like an old tune, something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep beneath the boards in your room. I love you still and true. So watch me move at your will just like the tides for the moon."
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Penance
These unfamiliar streets where I hide my face and name
And these secrets that I keep. Every stranger looks the same
The cold New England air rips the will from my blood
And I replace it with the ache, the ash, the dirt, and lack of love
No hands to hold, no hands to pray (for me)
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
Most precious sacrament, tip the bottle in prayer each night
With one hand to the altar and the other to the wine
The parish pours out from the church, snow is falling quietly
Let it fall, cover my steps into the dark end of the street
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
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Remorse
The days since we last spoke turned to weeks, turned to months, turned to years
You were heavy with child with your arms around a stranger in fear
I had the burn in my blood, I had the ash in my veins, had the lies I keep hid between teeth
The boy must never know about me, never know of my face. Between us, hold these secrets we keep
My penance, in your name
"Hail Mary, have mercy
I dread the loss of heaven, living in hell
Forgive me my Father, for I am a sinner"
Rain taps on the window. Burning red neon sign pushes it's way through the blinds
Sleep never comes easy. Sinking guts, lacking faith and on the nod every night
Dim glow of the street lights, forgotten tenement for the damned
No cut of the cloth here, just another broken man waiting, praying for death
My penance in your name
My penance in your name
"Hail Mary, have mercy
I dread the loss of heaven, living in hell
Forgive me my Father, for I am a sinner"
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Pillar Of Salt
Nights chasing ghosts, asleep in the pews.
Vacant and still, your arm in a noose.
Pillar of salt, we can never look back.
The lies we have led, we are cursed in our past.
We are cursed in our past.
We are cursed in our death.
A penance paid for in blood.
The guilt staining my hands.
My lover stolen from me.
Thieving Father be damned.
No mercy on me.
Myself and sins I detest.
Devil lying in wait collecting his debts.
No hope. No hope.
Communion of saints, of bread, body and wine.
Quiet and still, drinking me dry.
God left here long ago, heavy lies a thorned crown.
In pride and in spite, no faith to be found.
We are cursed in our past.
We are cursed in our death.
A penance paid for in blood.
The guilt staining my hands.
My lover stolen from me.
Thieving Father be damned.
No mercy on me.
Myself and sins I detest.
Devil lying in wait collecting his debts.
Collecting his debts.
Collecting his debts.
No mercy on me.
Myself and sins I detest.
Devil lying in wait collecting his debts.
No hope. No hope.
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Atonement
I’ve been slipping away
I’ve been losing the days
I’ve been letting my vices drink from me
No holy spirit, no resurrection
I’ve been hoping on death, faith forgotten in theft
Years of heartache and guilt haunting my sleep
No holy spirit, no salvation
Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
Been waiting, a lifetime to hear that voice
Speaking quiet and low, carries the weight of the world
I can hear him helpless between words
Been paying a lifelong sins penance
Speaking quiet and low, lay down the weight of the world
Find some solace and comfort in the word
"What brings you here my son
What brings you here my son"
Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
I’ve been slipping away
I’ve been losing the days
I’ve been letting the needle bleed from me
No holy spirit, no resurrection
I’ve been hoping on death, faith forgotten in theft
Years of heartache and guilt haunting my sleep
No holy spirit, no salvation
Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
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Vice & Regret
[Speaking:]
"Remember not the sins
Offenses of my youth
According to thy mercy think upon me
Oh lord for thy goodness
Blessed are they that mourn
For they shall be comforted
Our father which art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done"
Grief and failure
Burn in my veins
Vice and regret, coursing through me
Breathe in defeat, feel it aching
Cold black heartbreak, lungs collapsing
Dear departed, violent hands
Faith forgotten, no redemption
Heart rate fallen, coffin timber
Committed to earth, by the hands of your father
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Forgive me my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
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Still & True
Been thinking about our better days
The nights we let slip away
The dull ache when the longing's gone
Burn my lungs and forget your name
Replace it with a softer pain
The siren song ringing on and on and
Keep me like a note tune something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep and keep me closer to you
Keep me like a note tune
I'm still and true
Been thinking about our better days
The nights we let slip away
The siren song ringing on and on and
Keep me like a note tune something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep and keep me closer to you
Keep me like a note tune
I'm still and true
Woah, woah, woah, woah, woah, woah, woah
Keep me like a note tune something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep and keep me closer to you
Keep me like a note tune
I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
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Let Me Down
Sleepwalking skeleton wasting away
An apparition losing track of his own feet
Catch my reflection and I don't recognize the face that I see
Barely holding on like the trees to the dead and dying leaves
So let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
I feel my lungs drink the ocean drowning me
I hung myself with all the secrets that I keep
Lie through my teeth so no one knows the shape I'm in
I hide my hands so no one sees her always shaking
So let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Lie through my teeth so no one knows the shape I'm in
I hide my hands so no one sees her always shaking
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
